The same feeling

Why I have to leave Jakarta and cikarang will be the hardest things of my life since i was there? I dont know why this question can't get ut of my head. Honestly, I'm not comfortable enough with this new atmosphere. 

It almost 8 month but still have the same feeling like the first time i'm living here. So many things in here who always make me have uncomfortable feeling. The bizarre friends, the public tranportationis is really scare, the foods, the weather, the store............oh GOD...............

I just miss my high school life and my life in metropolitan city. There is so many great memories and I just can't imagine i must leave them for four years later. I'm afraid all people i left behind will forget everything about me. I'm afraid that i will never get anylife and love like this. I scared what would be happaned in my next life?

Based on my dreams i'm  trying to hide this feeling. I try to get out of my comfortzone to get a better life. Try to not complain again and appreciate every single times i had. Yup i just afraid to losing them but i thought this is not goodbye for forever this is just distance. "Distance means nothing when you still  have the same feeling with them. Distance means nothing when you still keep in touch with them". but sometimes i can't hide the temptation to going back.